
hey there! i'm kitra, but you can call me kit!
she/they | 25+ | lesbian❝ *call me selfish, call me a monster, i don't care. when it comes down to it, i will always choose you.❞
▍ ❝ BEFORE YOU FOLLOW:• This is a selfshipping blog. Most posts will be about selfshipping and my relationship with Damon - NOT Damon's canon relationship(s).• I may post NSFW/suggestive content from time to time. They will be tagged accordingly with #nsft or #suggestive - Please blacklist these tags if you do not want to see 18+ content! Most NSFW content will be on my separate, 18+ blog.• I will not follow back minors! Sorry!• I want my dash to be primarily selfship content, so I may not follow back if you aren't a selfship blog or have any indication that you are a selfship blog! I may follow non-selfship blogs that pertain to Damon's source though (TVDU).• FUB FREE! You can unfollow me at any time. If you want me to stop following you, I prefer a hard block only because I don't want to accidentally re-follow/interact if that makes you uncomfortable.• I don't identify as a proshipper/antishipper/neutral... I don't like these labels and I feel like these things are not black and white. What I do, however, is check people's carrds/bios/etc who follow me and if I see something that goes against my DNF, I will hard block. I mute/block tags with topics I do not like, and will not engage with said topics. These topics include incest, pedophilia, zoophilia, and rape/noncon themes.• My activity may be spotty - I will tend to post and talk here a lot some days and go quiet for others. There may be some periods where I go inactive but I'll always come back!• I do not do fidelity lists. If you are non-sharing and prefer I don't interact with others who share your F/O, it's best not to follow me as I do not abide by that! There are some exceptions, but it's a mental list for a few close friends. However, I will try to tag other ships content I reblog as #Others Ships. Feel free to tell me to tag a certain ship a specific way for you!• Since this is a selfship blog with Damon, who is a vampire, I may talk about topics such as: blood, death, violence, murder, toxic traits, etc from time to time. I probably will not use tags for this so please do not follow if these topics make you uncomfortable!• I block whatever and whoever makes me uncomfortable. You do you, but not all of it is for me. I will curate my space for the smallest of reasons, please respect it and do not block evade.
▍ ❝ DO NOT FOLLOW IF...• Basic DNI criteria• Would prefer you not follow me if you are a minor however, I cannot control what you do. Please blacklist my NSFW tags if you do choose to follow me. Liking, reblogging, and replying to my general f/o imagine posts or SFW artworks/writings is fine!• You are against selfshipping/think selfshipping is weird (why are you here? how did you get here)• You think lesbians cannot selfship with men/think they're "fake lesbians" for selfshipping with men. It's fiction and I am having fun!• You want to drag me into discourse or drama - I'm here to just selfship and have fun and find community. I am too old for drama (note this does not include bring attention to calling out actual problematic people in the community who pose a danger to others! I don't consider that drama!)• You selfship with minors as an adult• You get upset when people utilize the block button - It's there for a reason!If you INTERACT with me without following and something above applies to you, it's whatever. I don't check every blog/person who interacts with my posts so I likely won't even know about it. I do however request you do not FOLLOW me if anything above applies to you.
• I am a mirrorsharer! This means if you have a selfship with Damon, I will match whatever YOUR sharing status is! If you're okay with sharing, I'd love to follow/interact; I love seeing others selfship with him! If you are non-sharing, I will respect that and not interact with you (and likely will just block you so you don't have to see my stuff! I don't want to upset anybody)• While I am fine with sharing Damon and following/interacting with those who do as well, I likely won't reblog other s/i x Damon posts from you. This blog is about my relationship with him, not anyone else's. However I will like/reply/engage in conversation with you in other ways!
Damon Salvatore, as depicted in The Vampire Diaries canon, is morally complex and is considered a very controversial character. His canonical actions include manipulation, violence, coercion, assault, murder, and other behaviors that are harmful and unacceptable in real-world contexts.Nothing on this blog romanticizes or excuses those behaviors.This blog features a self-ship interpretation of Damon Salvatore. For the purpose of my content, certain canon elements, particularly those involving assault/coercion involving Caroline and Andie, have been removed or reinterpreted. These actions are not canon to my portrayal of Damon.That being said, Damon is still a vampire, and retains the core aspects of his dark, violent past of being one for over a century. He is not innocent. Damon has a history of cruelty, moral ambiguity, and questionable choices. These remain parts of his character in my portrayal as part of his past/backstory.If any of this information makes you uncomfortable in any way, feel free to block/not follow! <3


BACKGROUND.
• birthplace : New York
• current residence : Mystic Falls, Virginia
• significant other : Damon Salvatore
• children : No thank you!!❝ + POSITIVE ATTRIBUTES : Deeply loyal, empathetic, protective, honest/straightforward, good sense of humor, grounding presence for others, brave when it counts❝ - NEGATIVE ATTRIBUTES : Anxious, prone to overthinking, ignores her own needs, stubborn, pushes people away when feeling scared or unworthy, self-esteem/body image issues, reckless when it comes to protecting someone she loves, bottles things up until she snaps


▍ ❝ When did this start?
I first fell in love with Damon's character between 2010 and 2011, and it likely shifted into selfship territory around 2012-2013. Even though my fixation on him has come and gone in waves over the years, he's always remained someone special to me. No matter what fandoms I drifted through, or what characters came and went, Damon was the one I kept circling back to. He's familiar and the one who's always felt like "mine". He's been a constant throughout my life; The Vampire Diaries aired in 2009 when I was in middle school and I've watched it every week since the pilot. He's been a constant with me throughout high school, my teen years, into my adulthood. I can't even say that for a lot of friends and relationships I've had. This selfship and my self insert is a way of honoring the connection I've always felt towards him.
▍ ❝ What he means to me
Damon has always meant a lot to me because he's a character I see myself in. The way he hides hurt behind sarcasm, pushes people away when he's scared, and feels things way too deeply for his own good, those are traits I've carried in my own life. He's flawed, emotional, defensive, and terrified of losing the people he cares about, yet he loves with an intensity that is reckless. I relate to that. Having BPD, I relate to the fear of not being enough, the instinct to ruin something before it can abandon you, and yet having a quiet hope that someone may choose you anyway. Damon is very messy and complicated, but he grows and tries, and eventually does learn how to love without destroying it, others, or himself. Watching him struggle and evolve has made me feel seen in ways I couldn't describe back then and still can't sometimes even today. He's become a character I clung to, found comfort in, and always came back to, because at his core he is someone who hurts deeply and loves even deeper, and that's something I've always understood.
i love you. that means i'm not just here for the pretty parts. i'm here no matter what.
▍ ❝ HOW THEY MET:Kit met Damon at the Mystic Grill during an ordinary night. She was new to town, tucked into a corner booth with a drink, some food, and her laptop. She clearly wasn't a Mystic Falls local - Damon knew everyone who lived there.He noticed her immediately, half because she looked like she didn't fit in, and half because she was alone. He sat with her fully intending to amuse himself and possibly use her as a snack later. Instead, her sarcasm and wit bounced right back at him. She didn't fall for his charm the way other women did easily. She actually thought he was kind of an asshole. One drink turned into an actual conversation. He learned a little bit about why she moved there and he told her a little bit about the town's history.By the end of it, he walked away without compelling her and without feeding from her. The only thing he walked away from her with was her name and an annoying curious buzz in the back of his head about this human woman who he thought would turn into background noise in the town like everyone else.
▍ ❝ BEST FRIENDS... OR MORE?Kit and Damon's friendship develops slowly and almost accidentally as she becomes a regular visitor at the boarding house thanks to Caroline "adopting" her into her group with Bonnie and Elena.Once Kit is accidentally exposed to the supernatural world, and Damon is the one who saves her from a "bad place, bad time" vampire attack, their connection shifts. He becomes the one who explains the rules to her. They fall into an easy rhythm, Kit showing up to hang out with Damon after hard shifts at her job, that usually turn into late-night conversations and lazy evenings on the couch. Damon hovers near her without meaning to, his instincts automatically putting himself between her and anything dangerous.Eventually, the edges of their friendship start to blur into something that doesn't feel like friendship anymore. Kit is at the boarding house more often than not. He notices how she likes to stay around him when she doesn't need to. She notices the way his eyes soften when he looks at her and how he looks for her in a room first.Friends around them sense the shift before they do. They still call each other friends, but the air between them feels heavier and more tense. Goodnights begin to stretch, hugs last longer than they should, and every "accidental" touch feels like fire.Neither of them want to lose what they have, so they don't talk about it.
▍ ❝ PRESENT DAY:In the present day, Kit and Damon are no longer skirting the line between friends and something more. They're officially together, deeply in love in a way that only they can understand. Kit now lives full time at the boarding house, taking up space in the best ways for Damon.Damon is still Damon, even while in a relationship with her. The difference is now every choice he makes has her in its orbit. He doesn't give long speeches about how much he cares; he just shows up. His softness with her comes in quiet moments with her. He knows her better than anyone. For someone who's spent over a century convincing himself that he doesn't need anyone, Damon has somehow ended up with a life built around one human who refuses to leave him and refuses to allow him to push her away.Kit is still anxious, still overthinks, still all too aware of how breakable she is next to vampires and witches and werewolves and whatever else Mystic Falls decides to throw at them every given week. Being with Damon has given her confidence. She knows the rules. She catches details and tells about Damon nobody else can. She's the one who can tug Damon back from going too far with just a look or an anchoring hand on his arm. She doesn't try to make him into something he's not; she just anchors him to the version of himself that feels like a person and not a weapon or a monster. They both make each other feel chosen and not a liability.



GENERAL .
• name : Damon Salvatore
• gender : He/Him
• age : Turned at 25, currently 180+
• species : Vampire
• orientation : Bisexual
• ethnicity : WhitePHYSICAL .
• eyes : Icy Blue
• hair : Short, Black
• height : 5 foot 10 inches
• weight : 175lbs
• build : Lean, muscular. Broad shoulders, defined chest/arms, slim waist.
• clothing : Dark, fitted basics - Henleys, tees, slim jeans, boots, leather jackets, blazers.


BACKGROUND.
• birthplace : Mystic Falls, Virginia
• current residence : Mystic Falls, Virginia
• significant other : Kit
• children : "Vampires can't procreate... But we love to try!"❝ + POSITIVE ATTRIBUTES : Fiercely loyal to his people, protective, brave, charismatic, quick-witted, observant, resourceful and strategic under pressure❝ - NEGATIVE ATTRIBUTES : Controlling; makes decisions for others, jealous/territorial, holds grudges, petty, impulsive and reckless when emotional, struggles to communicate feelings, pushes people away before they can hurt him, morally flexible



▍ ❝ EARLY LIFE.Damon Salvatore was born on June 18th, 1839 as the eldest son of Giuseppe and Lillian Salvatore. His childhood in Mystic Falls was strict and controlled; Giuseppe expected obedience and discipline, and Damon learned early how to hide his feelings behind sarcasm and defiance. He was close to his younger brother, Stefan. Damon was the rebellious one, the disappointment, the son who pushed against his father's expectations and took the blame more often than not. He lost his mother to consumption at the age of 19.As a young man, Damon served as a Confederate soldier in the Civil War, more out of obligation and circumstance than any deep belief in the cause. When he returned and met Katherine Pierce in 1864, he fell hard and fast, mistaking her attention for unconditional love. He fell in love with Katherine fast and built his entire sense of his future around her.Damon's human life ended violently during the chaos following Katherine's capture. With her blood in his system, he was shot and killed by his own father while trying to free Katherine and escape with her and Stefan. He was later forced to complete the transition by Stefan, setting him on a path of vengeance and darkness.

▍ ❝ VAMPIRE LIFE.Damon spent the last century and a half leaning hard into his new vampirism and immortality. Where Stefan tried to control his bloodlust, Damon fully embraced feeding on humans, moving through the world as a charming, vicious predator who rarely apologized for the wreckage he left behind and the lives he ruined.In 1953, one of his own relatives, Joseph Salvatore, betrayed him, luring him back to Mystic Falls and handing him over to the Augustine Society. He was kept as test subject 21051, and Damon spent about five years being dissected, experimented on, and displayed at Whitmore's parties. His only companion during this time was Lorenzo. Their friendship helped Damon hang onto what was left of his humanity. During the 1959 New Year's party, after planning for months with Enzo, Damon managed to break free. The building caught fire, and Damon couldn't free Enzo from his vervain-soaked cage. To survive the guilt of leaving his friend behind, he flipped his humanity switch and walked away. He spent the next decades hunting down the Whitmore bloodline in revenge.When Damon returned to Mystic Falls, he was 170+ years old. He initially acts as an antagonist, focused on freeing Katherine and causing chaos and violence, but slowly shifts into a reluctant protector as he forms new attachments to people within the town.

▍ ❝ PRESENT DAY.In the present, Damon still lives in Mystic Falls as a vampire. He's still carrying the weight of his violent past and trying to atone for his mistakes that he will never completely outrun.He is long past the point of chasing Katherine's ghost, and his relationship with Elena Gilbert has settled into something honest, their relationship part of his past for good.Damon has shifted from a terrorizer of the town to one of its primary's defenders. When something threatens the town or his people, he's usually the first to do something about it. He still makes decisions no one else wants to make, and crosses lines that no one else wants to cross. He's still more likely to break someone's neck than talk things out, but now it's in service of keeping his loved ones alive and not just because he's bored.Somewhere in the middle of all of that, Kit enters his life. She slowly and quietly becomes the person he orbits. With her, Damon lets the mask slip; she sees who he is and stays anyway, challenging him without trying to "fix" him. He has a good relationship with everyone in the gang, and would burn the world for any of them.He's still a cocky sarcastic ass while doing it, though.

